Nostalgia is a way of remembering people and places and things, and wishing things hadn’t changed. It has a sweetness to it.
A weekend of working all three days whilst being dragged down by a cold and just some really shitty luck, I’ve been feeling pretty emotional these past couple of days. Just after my latest shift today, I was hungry and tired and starting to feel really low and just as I was coming out from the back, back into the shop I heard a song on the radio.
Dire Straits: Romeo and Juliet was softly playing in the background. As I type this, I am currently listening to it again because after four whole years, it finally makes me smile again. It is a song that holds an extremely special place in my heart and it’s making me feel really sentimental. It’s making me think back to when life was easy back in 2007. Back when I was 17 and I didn’t have a care in the world and life felt really really good.
I am in no means the same person I was when I was 17. Heck, I’ve changed a hell of a lot (on the inside) even if I haven’t changed much on the outside. But back then, everything felt so easy and life was so simple. I didn’t have to worry about paying rent, paying for my own food, or any of the worries that come with being an adult. I could just focus on being. Life was so close to carefree. It was enjoyable and I really took it for granted.
Tonight I am feeling a little nostalgic for times past. I’m feeling a little lost. I think I’m stuck in a rut as well which is never a nice feeling. I’m stuck waiting for things, waiting for the future and I hate waiting. I just want everything to fall into place now….