After my latest post, I naturally needed an uplift. So here we go.
OH OH OH We’re going on a summer holiday! Or at least I am. I have a few places on my adventure list this year. I’m off to Rhodes in 7 days (the prompt for this post), staying at the Rhodes Horizon Resort, all inclusive – MUCH EXCITE. We booked this baby back in February on the First Choice website, and the count down has whizzed by, much like this year. I’m also popping off to Edinburgh for a few days for a long weekend with ma lady Amy to explore the sights up North and experience the Fringe festival. But to top it off, I’m celebrating my 26th birthday, hopefully very very drunk with my favourite girl, in the middle of the sea (well I think we will be on an island somewhere in Greece) for our boat holiday. Could you imagine two 20 something gals getting pissed on a boat? Mmhmm probs not the best of ideas.
So there we have it. I have a fair few travel plans that filter into my August, and these travel plans are much needed after the start of this year. But we’re not going to dwell. I have 7 days left before I jet off to 30 degree weather (which is apparently not uncommon in London right now…) but whatever, I’ll be sunning myself on the first of many Greek beaches and dipping my toes in the ever blue sea with all inclusive cocktails coming my way. But with every sunny summer holiday, you need a good book to read right?
I’ve placed a decent order on Amazon for some books that have been on my TBR list, and I thought best to mention them here for anyone else looking for summer reads. Plus I am going stir crazy at home by myself. There’s only so much washing and tidying I can do.
Continue reading “My Summer Holiday Reads”
Firstly I have always liked to write down my feelings. I feel when you have written it all down, you can breathe a little easier, feel a little lighter because everything you want to share has been hashed out onto a page that can be deleted, burned, thrown in the trash or publicly made available for others to share how you are feeling…. but on this occasion, I wouldn’t be doing this at all if it wasn’t for finding Tommy’s and their #togetherforchange campaign and reading their article on terminating for medical reasons specifically; this charity has been a tremendous help in trying to understand the emotional heartache I’m currently going through. The support itself is incredible and the other people’s stories are breathtakingly inspiring. A big thank you for all that this charity does. They are opening up the world to things that we do not talk about, that we are too scared to discuss openly, including termination – I really hope your vital research can spare others from living through this pain and heartache and I hope that those who have struggled, can find some peace and support among a friendly group of survivors. Continue reading “#BreakTheSilence: My Story”
There is no easy way to introduce this blog post. It’s 4:30am and it’s bank holiday Easter and I’m in no celebrating mood. Read the title. Enough said.
1. “People understand”: ohhh do ya now? People like to use the term understand to articulate their own meanings. “I understand you’re going through a hard time” “I understand that you’re upset right now” really? Do you actually understand or do you just know that I’m dealing with this and have every right to be upset. Because I don’t think you really understand. Not even if you’re going through the same thing or have had something similar happen. Grief and loss is very personal to an individual, but thanks for the wisdom that y’all understand mate.
2; People expect you to get over it: it’s been two months – oh of course, you should totally be fine now. Let’s all have a laugh and a joke like we’ve got no care in the world. Nah that’s okay. Life is shit and I’m going to stay this way for a while because there is a fucking hole in my heart where someone special has been ripped from me and this world 🙃 so yes. I think there will be many many days to come where I’m not rainbow and sunshine so gimme a fucking break.
3. People can be so optimistic it hurts. Obviously nobody wants to be sad forever. Time heals all wounds and all that crap but I personally don’t want to hear about how I will not always feel this way. That doesn’t help right now. Nothing helps right now. Just have to take it one day at a time and I’d rather do it in peace. So if you want to be there for me personally… please just sit there and say nothing.
4. People have no filter. Literally. That or people are so ignorant that they just sprout shit that comes out of their mouth without thinking and it makes you so mad because they aren’t even aware of what they’re saying, because obviously you and your problems are not the centre of attention which is fine but people should actually consider what they say and who they say it to. This leads onto my next and biggest point actually quite rightly:
5. Peoples lives go on. And this is one of the most brutally hurtful truths about grief and loss. Of course people will be there for you, but their lives will continue. And good things will happen to others, fun times and adventures to be had, and you will be left feeling like the world is just crapping on you left right and centre. But the unfortunate thing is, nobody will feel your grief, except for you. You can share your feelings with others but they won’t truly understand. They can’t. It’s impossible… and it really really hurts.
In short, I’m going to be selfish for a while. I don’t give two shits about the good things happening in your life right now because my life is in pieces 🤷♀️ Be patient with me. “I won’t always feel this way” But I think I deserve some time.
And thus concludes my ideology that we as a human race are actually really fricking selfish and death is the devil and life is so very cruel. The end.
So I’ll say it: I’m a sucker for listening to a soppy luveeeeeeee song, but it’s not your typical ballad-Celine Dion type stuff. Bryan Adams – Everything I Do is not on the list either. I don’t sit and wallow around and listen to sappy love songs to make me feel sad about my life. In fact, I actually really enjoy pressing play on a loveable playlist on a Friday afternoon, ready to wind down for the weekend. I also love finding new gems, quoting the lyrics and sending them to Con with the 🙊 emoji saying things like ‘LOOK AT ME. I’M CUTE. I’M THINKING OF YOU.”
A lot of the songs on this list are actually songs that make me think of Conner because you know, I’m a bit of a sucka like that – but you can just ignore that and listen to them and enjoy them and feel cute and happy about life, yeah?
Go ahead, I’ve linked each song to a youtube video (they are in no favourable order.)
I Will Be Happy and Hopefully You Will Be Too – Stu Larsen
Perfectly Perfect – Simple Plan
Whole Lotta You – A Rocket To The Moon
Kiss Me Like Nobody’s Watching – Simple Plan
Love is Alive – Lea Michelle
New York to California – Mat Kearney
Sad Song (feat. Elena Coats) – We The Kings
Last Train Home – Ryan Star
Unstoppable – Alex Goot
Shut Up and Dance – Alex Goot
Black & Blue – Carter Hulsey
Ever Enough – A Rocket To The Moon
Afraid of Heights – Tom Fletcher
Obvs some don’t even sound like love songs but *shurgs* to me they’re pretty and perfect and heartfelt. Some of the links link directly to official videos. Prepare for tears with the last two on the list.
Anyway. What songs do you really enjoy listening to, to wind down ready for the weekend?
2017 is drawing to a close v. fast. It only feels like yesterday the sun was shining and the UK was sweating with some kind of crazeeeey heatwave. However, as the year is coming to an end, I am taking some inspo off of Hannah Gale who dropped a cute post today about her favourite moments of 2017.
A lot has happened in 2017 yet it’s passed by in quite a blur. Luckily my hobby (obsession?) of taking pictures, means I’ve captured a fair number of things. So we shall start the list off.
Continue reading “My Favourite Moments of 2017”
I had an epiphany moment this morning.
Sitting in a catch up with my work manager, we were discussing upcoming birthdays and I was stressing (surprise… NOT) about how I did not feel like I was turning 25 in 16 days.
Continue reading “Real Talk: Self-Revelations and moving forward”
I am the worst blogger in history. Can I even call myself a blogger? I don’t think I can. I honestly wish I could channel my dream bloggers who provide amazing content, daily, but obvs that just ain’t me, So firstly I apologise…
Secondly, HELLO DEAR FRIENDS. I would like to apologise for the lack of content, one because of the main reason above, but two, because this little bean has been busy busy busy. Aside from my 9-5 job, I’ve recently up-hauled my cosy little life in Surrey, with green grass, rivers, ducks and swans that hiss and angrily square up at me – the fact I pay bare minimum rent and have food cooked for me and have unlimited access to internet and dog pets…. to moving into a two bedroom flat IN LONDON – zone 3 but LONDON and, to top the icing on the cake, I had my first ever trip to Ikea on the Friday just gone, to buy cute Pinterest worthy furniture and cute little house plants that make for perfect Instagram snaps.
If that isn’t living the dream, I don’t know what is.
Continue reading “A look inside: Our New Flat, Seven Floors Up #livingroomtour”